21st April 2008

it's all begins with a text. then, it lasts for 2 years ++.
i regret to reply your sms.

my dad...

He is sick.huhuhu

i wanna go home......

Lord,let me sick.not him. :(

i miss her...

I saw my uncle's fb today. he reminds me of my late aunt. pity him..

i can't imagine how would it feel when you lose someone that you loved the most. and you will never had the chance to meet her again. can't hear the voice again. can't see her anymore.........

huhu

i love walking in the rain because no one knows i'm crying

Lord, help me to forget him. Only you can help me.

I just want to live again......

Have you wondered how it feels when it's all over?
Wondered how it feels when you just have to start a new?

Never knowing where you're going
When you face a brand new day
It used to be that way
Now I just close my eyes and say

I just want to breathe again
Learn to face the joy and pain
Discover how to laugh a little , cry a little
Live a little more
I just wanna face the day
Forget about the wars of yesterday
Maybe if I hope a little Try a little more
I’ll breathe again
http://www.free-lyrics.org

Starting out again is never easy
Disappointments come and go but life still moves on
With a bit of luck It's a brand new start
That might just work my way
No need to walk away
Don’t want to live life's replay

Things will work out fine
If you can find the courage to look past the night
To see the break of dawn.

HEY YOU!

YOU MAY NOW GET LOST FROM MY LIFE. YOU BRING NOTHING GOOD BUT PAIN. GET YOUR ASS OUT OF MY LIFE.

haiz...

Being hated for ignoring you.. what the fish!

Is that my fault? huhu

you upset me! i want to be your friend....... :(

owh i hate. u don't even give me chance to be your friend.

okay..as you wish.

owh...! i miss my single life.

huhuhu... nothing to say..

i miss my single life..my previous single life. not now. huhu

life with no worries. no jealousy. no feelings. no pain. no man.

i'm just care about myself, family, friends, money, study. that's all.

now, the feelings of being single is not the same anymore.. haha

it's like more to loneliness...used to be busy wif someone before.then the sudden change makes me feel lonely. well, it's just a beginning of a new life. time will heals. ignore the feelings.

feel like i was too far from God.huhu

JAQ!STOP LAYAN-ING YOUR STUPID FEELINGS.

feel more relax after writing. credit to Blogspot. :D

what a quote.

NEVER ALLOW SOMEONE TO BE YOUR PRIORITY WHILE YOU ARE JUST THEIR OPTION.

Itik 2 serupa.

OWH EM JEE!!

you look just like him. i hate!

la la Land

YOU ARE OUT OF TRACK JACQUELINE!! HAHA

KEEP IN YOUR TRACK!

DON'T TRUST LIAR!

DON'T SIMPLY CHANGE YOUR MIND.

YOU ARE SO EASY TO BE DISTRACTED. FOCUS ON THE RIGHT THING!

AND THE MOST IMPORTANT THING IS,

INVEST YOUR LIFE IN A RIGHT PLACE.

THEN THERE WILL BE NO DISAPPOINTMENT.

:)

jiyu~ :(

Memo n jiyu, sorry.....

i need to keep both of you in this box.

will see you 2 in two years time...or more..huhu

lots of love,

bee

phua chu kang

waaaa.... this uncle aaaa...very kind owh....hehe went to church today n mcm besa, tunggu bas dpn that gerai bah kut teh. dpn rumah itu uncle la... then i remember the day, last 3 week i think. i was waiting for the t430 bus. want to go bek from church bah. it was raining and i was alone. then i berteduh la under the entah pokok apa. pokok bunga kot. kena hujan jg.huhu x lama pas tu, ada org panggil2. i cari le..the i saw the uncle,dr tingkp rumah dia. i cant hear him but yg i paham from his gestures, he asks me to berteduh d garage rumah dia. wah...i was so touched.... ni yg saya fikir. kan orang selalu tnggu bas depan rumah dia. bila hujan kuat, mesti dia ingat orng2 yg selalu tunggu bas depan rumah dia. then dia p tngkla ada org atau xda di luar.

MAY JESUS BLESS YOU UNCLE! :)

boring post.

so, this is the final solution?? i don't know. lets see what happen next.. better or worse, i don't care anymore. too tired to love someone who is bla bla bla and bla!

i am jacq.

since i met him, i had changed. half of my self is not me anymore. i change myself to be more like him. i like what he likes. i want to know everything about him. anything related to him. i do it so we'll have the same interest.share the same story.talk about the same thing. to build chemistry between us....is that what we call 'love'? ^^ love is beautiful....love is giving without expecting anything in return. it does not envy. it is not self-seeking. not easily angered. it always protects.always trusts, always hope,always perseveres. Love never fails.....

but, the true love can only be found in Jesus. mankind's love is imperfect. it's temporary...

maybe he is not for me..he might be the wrong man. maybe we are not meant to each other... his love becomes faded..gone as the day goes by...but my love is still here..hidden somewhere in my heart..once you found it, it will becomes first love again...or the other way around.

and now, i'm searching for my true identity..the old but original one...kind of lost it since I've been in the so-called relationship.

my boo.

yer~

being a loser once again.......

the so-called love.

love is annoying. i am strong. i knew it.

cekgu......

Dedicated to my late teacher.

A Teacher for All Seasons

A teacher is like Spring,
Who nurtures new green sprouts,
Encourages and leads them,
Whenever they have doubts.

A teacher is like Summer,
Whose sunny temperament
Makes studying a pleasure,
Preventing discontent.

A teacher is like Fall,
With methods crisp and clear,Lessons of bright colors
And a happy atmosphere.

A teacher is like Winter,
While it’s snowing hard outside,
Keeping students comfortable,
As a warm and helpful guide.

Teacher, you do all these things,
With a pleasant attitude;
You’re a teacher for all seasons,
And you have my gratitude!

By Joanna Fuchs

rasanya seperti baru semalam cikgu mengajar kami di kelas. dan sekarang, cgu sudah tidak lagi bersama kami. sorry cgu kalau ada tingkah laku dan perbuatan saya yg pernah menyinggung perasaan cgu. you are a great teacher. dedicated to your students. sy menyesal sbb x sempat berterima kasih atas semua jasa cgu. last may, i'm thinking of making a card for you and the other teachers to express my gratitude for all that they have done in my life. but i'm too busy for something else and now, i will not have the chance anymore. i missed the chance...huhu

beautiful liar...

wow.........for the first time,i have been cheated by someone and it was very2 painful. his behavior has destroyed my trust in him. why he betrays me? i wish that i will never know all the lies. should i grieving over this betrayal? too tired to be angry again. let bygones be bygones.

orang gila?

banyak orang gila d kudat sekarang. hmm..bukan gila kot. mungkin ada masalah mental sikit. kurang waras sikit dari yg waras. setakat ni,sudah 3 orang saya jumpa.
1. C udang
nama dia kazen sy panggil c udang.sebab hari2 dia cakap xda udang.macam la dia jual udang. kazen sy suka tyn dia ada udang ka hari ni. dia cakap xda udang owh.lucu c udang. ni perbualan dia sama kazen saya.
kazen : ada udang ka hari ni?
C udang : xda owh..kuat angin hari ni.
blablabla(x ingat yg lain)
p/s: kalau ko jumpa dia d kudat,ko tyn ja ada udang ka? mesti dia jawab punya.haha

2. xtau nama dia
saya duduk2 sama kazen lelaki saya.baru thn 6.dia makan buah jambu yg kena potong2 tu. itu orang limpas depan kami.ngam2 kazen sy tngah makan jambu. dia cakap:
org gila 2 : hai! lama x jumpa owh..bagi sy 1 boleh ka? (dia minta jambu)
tiba2 ni.kazen sy pun bagi la.

3. org gila hp
ni lagi pelik.dia suka angkat telefon wlpun xda org kol.dia ming'bizi2' urus bisnes konon. ni yang sy dengar dia cakap d hp.
org gila hp : macam mana sudah tu rumah? kejap lagi sy pigi bank kasi keluar 5 juta. haha sot

nanti sy sambung.mau balik dl.hehe

home sweet home!

hahaha! i'm home! :D
that's all.hee

p/s: i don't like cooking. please send a cook to my house. :( haha

Thank you Lord for everything

Thank you Lord for everything,

The big things and the small,

For “every good gift comes from God,”

The Giver of them all,

And all too often I accept
Without any thanks or praise,
The gifts You send as blessings
Each day in many ways,

And so at this time

i want to thank you Lord

for giving me a lot more than my share,

First, thank You for the little things

That often come in my way,

The things that i take for granted,

But don’t mention when I pray.

The unexpected courtesy,

The thoughtful, kindly deed,

A hand reached out to help me

In the time of sudden need.

Oh, make me more aware, dear God,
Of little daily graces
That come to me with “sweet surprise”
From never-dreamed-of places.

And help me to remember
That the key to life and living,
Is to make each prayer a prayer of thanks
And every day Thanksgiving.

my bestfriend forever

tiba2 teringat kawan sy ni.haha my bestie. c Cla @ Fresilla Magial. she is my bf since i was in standard 6. then, we went to the same secondary school. same matriculation. we have been studying together for 7 years. wow!!lama tu.hehe seingat saya,kami tidak pernah gaduh.haha tp time di matrik hari tu, kami ada gaduh 1 kali. so funny. saya mau tulis so saya x lupa nanti. masa di matrik dulu, kan ada pemilihan choir untuk wakil labuan tu. ada audition.saya betul2 mau ikut.so saya bawa lah dia. jadi,malam audition tu,semangat ni saya.awal lg sudah siap mau pg DK. sebab tu advertisement cakap, x boleh lewat.kalau dtng lmbat automatik x kena terima. petang tu sy kasi ingat c cla pasal tu audition. tp malam tu,dia lambat pula.huhu sy balik2 mesej dia. tp dia blm mandi rasanya.x ingat knapa dia lmbt. hampir setengah jam kami lambat. sya mau pg 1 org pun x berani.huhu marah2 sdh sy. saya tunggu dia d home cafe tu. bila dia sampai,sy x brcakap.haha kami terus pg DK.harap2 belum mula. sampai sana, audition sudah mula. huhu c cla suruh masuk ja.tapi saya x mau.lambat sdh kan. sy bawa dia balik bilik la lepas tu.otw balik,kami x brckp.masam ja muka saya sama dia.hahahaha lucu pula. lepas tu, kami balik bilik masing2 la. kechiwa betul sy..haha x lama selepas sampai di bilik, bru saya sedar. macam jahat btl pula sy tadi.x brckp pun sama dia.ketara btl marah. saya yang bawa dia ikut tu audition.mgkin dia x brminat tp dia mau kasi kawan sy ja. tapi sy x menghargai pula. huhu xlama tu, saya mesej dia.haha sy cakap sorry pasal tadi.hehehehe pas tu dia balas, sorry jg sbb dia lambat. lepas tu kami ketawa dalam mesej ja la.hahahaha lucu bah. bagi saya la.hehe
dulu kmi sama2 mau jadi doktor.lepas tu plan mau buka klinik sama2.haha last2 dua2 jadi cikgu. terus kami tukar plan.mau buka sekolah sendiri sama2.hahahahahahahahahahahah =p
sampai d universiti,kami berpisah sudah.huhu :( mula2 sy x biasa sbb di matrik dia ja kawan sy jalan tiap minggu. xpalah. mesti berdikari.hehe

boring...boring

hahahah..sy btl2 boring ni..haha no exam today.tp esok ada, haiz..geram..
my first paper was absolutely sucks! x baca hbs ba.sapa suru tu lecturer bg tips tp ada jg lain yg keluar.haiya...all of us expecting apa yg dia ckp itu ja yg keluar.huhu xpala.exam ja pun.boring......
hahahah
c d'fester lg.bikin panas.hehe bz betul dgn stupid game dia n kawan2 dia.sy dia kasi biar2. ko ingat ko ja ada game ja?ko ingat ko ja ada kwn? nsb baik xm skrng.huh mls mau gdh.biarla ko sana. hahaha sy bnyk krja jg.tp mau msg ba.huhu
study2..esok ada xm. exam TOSAL. lepas tu literature. ni subjek yg sy pling xtau mau stdy apa. jawab ja la.

p/s: i love catssssssss.......

Exam is just around the corner and Gosh!! i haven't studied for my exam!! @_@ well, it is just an examination. nothing more..hahahaha can't wait to finish them all then i'll have a long--long sem break....hee ^^

p/s : don't disturb my stuffs. i hate it.

It has been ages since my last update. :D
pretty busy with my study..n gamesss....heee
hmm....sorry blog spot..i come to you only when i have nobody to talk to. :)
I'm listening to my fave instrumental song-sleepwalk now..such a wonderful music.. someone introduces me to this song..someone special that makes this song so special to me. I'm missing that person. :( i was juz fighting with that "someone" and now i miss that "someone" already. wish u a good sleep. i cant sleep.. wish you were awake now.. bangun boo!!!huhu